heyy so posting some late night blabbering because i’ve had some thoughts on my mind for quite awhile, i don’t normally bring up drama either but i’ve been thinking anyway and wanted to share. it’s super long but read if you wanna ✌️

so over the past month or so i’ve really pondered about what makes me happy on here and what i really want to be associated with. a lot of that has had to do with my career as a freelancer and just as an artist in general and the different experiences i’ve had with different people

i won’t get into huge details, but when you work for someone long enough you begin to pick up little details on what kind of person they are. this is one big thing that’s really frustrated me about the ohm/bryce drama recently is that pretty much none of the fans speaking out have interacted with ohm on a one on one level, so they say things assuming they know what kind of person he is when they really don’t. trust me, i could get into a whole rant on not putting youtubers on a pedestal, but i’ll hold myself back from that for now lmao

i can’t tell you enough how important it is to focus on people and communities on the internet that make you happy, because in the long run, you will be happier as well. as of late, i’ve really been getting involved with the derp crew and oneyplays, because they’re extremely cool dudes and respect artists (this is a big one for me!) and act like regular guys who just chill with each other for fun. genuity plays a really big part in how much i like people or not, and as far as i’m concerned these guys have shown that they are through their interactions with one another and their communities. plus, i’ve come to learn that the most genuine, cool people never have to relay the fact that they are

i really used to like ohm for the fact that i thought he was genuine–like i said, that’s what i really look for in a person–but as time went on it started to become fuzzy with me. i’m sure you guys have noticed i’ve been making a lot less art of ohm, and making basically no thumbnails for him (not getting into that). all in all i’ve basically decided that i’m straying away from the whole ‘dream team’ because the unnecessary drama and immaturity has really left a bad taste in my mouth and reassured me that yeah, this is not what i want to associate myself with anymore. it just doesn’t make me happy like it used to

tl;dr, the drama that’s been going on lately is fuckin’ dumb, youtubers aren’t always as real as you think they are, and i’ve pretty much had a change of heart over the last few months that i want to be involved with people that make me the happiest. this is also probably the longest thing i’ve posted on here lol

1:51 - 7/23/2017 [22%]
#this isn't meant to be hostile btw  #i've just had these thoughts in my head for quite awhile and needed to get them out  #honestly i don't really care about the drama that happened today because it's really petty af lmao  #it's just added to things i've already been thinking about  #anyways going to bed bc it is 2am. gn u guys <3 
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